Everyone Else's Girl

dressed up
like a movie star
you go out
every friday night

you date guys
like it's a competition
without thinking of the
consequences

did you ever stop
to think
how it would be
few years from now
when age catches up
and new girls come

in the sidelines
you will be
because you were always
everyone else's girl

How Do You Know?

you know that
i've always wanted you
told you many times
but i'll tell it,
a million times again if i have to

i'll leave everyone
to be with you
all you have to do,
is to show me a sign

but you keep saying
it'll never work
that we can't be,
more than what we are now

how can it be?
tell me how you know?
without us even trying

Happiness Isn't to be Taken for Granted

tried to run away,
from everything i had
when you left me to be sad and lonely

went to sleep every night
wishing that morning would never come

i dug a hole
and tried to hide
starting over
seemed impossible

it took me time
but i learned my lesson
here i am
on my two feet again

everything is fine now
and never will i take
the happiness in my life
for granted

Love Over Lust

a different girl every night
no emotional attachments
everything was just physical

at first it seemed ideal
no commitments
no attachments
it was very convenient

but now i need to rearrange my priorities
as this doesn't feel right anymore
the one night stands
no longer fulfill my desires

the longing for true love has overtaken the lust
i want it to be more than physical attraction
the things i pushed away
i'm trying to pull back

Black and White

nothing is black and white
took me a while to realize
everything seems gray now
i'm caught up between right and wrong

i look back at the decisions i've made
and i keep thinking
if i've made the right choice

right or wrong
there's nothing much i can do
but from here onwards
i'll give it more thought

then again there's not much we can do
what's right for me
could be wrong for you
i guess i'm back at square one
caught up between right and wrong

Mom and Dad

came to this world
several months before i was due
had you worried
for the first few years

growing up i know i wasn't the easiest
but still you made no complains

you never forced me to do anything
rather you,
guided me through whatever that is i wanted to do

arguments we've had
only because you wanted the best for me

you gave me everything i wanted
and a whole lot more
all of which i took for granted

i've complained about,
not having angels in my life
but i was wrong
two angels have been with me
since the day i was born

thank you,
mom and dad
love you loads

Choices

excuses we give
about not having a choice
but is it true?
do we always end up not having a choice
or do we push ourselves to that place

sometimes choices aren't made
as it's easier to go with the flow
or responsibilities get in the way
and other times we are scared to,
step out of our comfort zones

the next times you complain about not having a choice
think again
did you really not have a choice?
or did you pretend it is so
since it is the easier that way

Where Are the Angels?

we've read in fairy tales
and heard in songs
stories about angels

possessed with beauty,
which can take our breath away
kindness which can melt a devils heart
saviors,
who guides us through rough times

growing up,
we were given hope
that,
someday an angel would come into our lives
to make everything alright

twenty two years and counting
i'm yet to see one
all i have seen
are people pretending to be angels
misleading everyone around

makes me question myself
where are the angels?
are they for real?
or just false hope
for us to hold onto,
when all is lost

The Orphan

12th birthday of mine
i will never forget
not because i got,
a new playstation

but because that's when i found out
that i was adopted

mom and dad said they wanted to talk
their smiling faces overshadowed by nervousness

i felt that something was wrong
but i never saw it coming
for a few minutes,
everything was frozen
we just stared at each other

tears fell down our cheeks
but then i smiled

as i realized that
two strangers made me their own
and treated me like their own flesh and blood
when my own didn't want me

Coffee Shop Girl

last april
i met her at the airport
but keeping in touch
never crossed our minds

few days back
at a coffee shop
an angel i saw
when least expected

amazed by her beauty
i kept looking at her
i did not realize
how stalker like it might have been

unable to get her off my mind
i searched everywhere for her
in an yearbook thrown away
i found who i was looking for

happiness fills my world these days
as she resides in my mind

A Beautiful Story

memories of you
will never be erased
so don't think that,
i've forgotten you babe
though we hardly talk now

we wrote our story
five years ago
after all these years
it's still my favorite story

many talk about moving on
once everything has ended
but what we had was a fairytale
things like that can't be replaced
and i don't want it to be

A Shadow I Was

i know you haven't seen me around
that's because,
i went away

no longer will i be there
to guide you

do not expect to see me around
since i won't be your shadow anymore
nor will i be there along the way

you took me for granted
when i was by your side
i don't think i'll let that happen
ever again

if you want to see me around
you'll have to make me your destination
as i won't be a passenger anymore

Back from Work

going through paperwork
giving out orders
looking into tasks
that's how my day has been

back here in my sofa
i sit back
and watch you
get busy with the housework

baby come here
let me hold you in my arms
kiss your neck
and caress your hair

i want to breathe in,
the smell of your skin
to breathe out,
the stress within

so come to me baby
into my arms

Things That Happened

things that happened
i try to think back
to see if it
really did happen

sometimes i feel
that it happened in another life
since it's hard to believe
it really did happen

during the day
i wear a happy face
hang out with my friends
just like the old days

but every night
when i go to sleep
i stay awake
while tears run down my cheek

reminds me
that it did happen
in this life

Unable

he takes her around
dressed in fancy clothes
she's just a compliment
to his lifestyle

she plays along
by putting up a fake smile
hiding the loneliness within

when he's not around
she comes to me
to tell her grievances
to satisfy her needs

as she knows,
i'm the only one who could
give her the what she needs

still she stays with him
unable to leave his riches
unable to escape the comfort zone
unable to stand up for herself

After All This Time

we had no choice
but to go our separate ways
we cried over the phone
and thought we'd never move on

life distracted us
from each other
years passed
and we barely kept in touch

last week we met
when least expected
act of fate
or just coincidence
i do not know

all i know
is that,
buried feelings
got unearthed

Trading Misery For Happiness

i was on a mountain of happiness
but now i feel as if
i've been pushed off the edge

happiness has become a mirage
but i'm not running after it

misery accompanies my world these days
which almost crashed down
during the last few days

pillars of friendship held it up
till i was able to take care of it on my own again

misery's company
i do not mind
as long as she stays on
the mountain of happiness

Emotions

emotions sometimes
cannot be controlled
and sometimes
we don't want them to be controlled

they lead us to take
actions which
affect the ones,
we care about

no one intends to hurt anyone
specially the ones they care about
though our actions
sometimes do hurt them

we try hard not to hurt them
but sometimes we are left helpless
all we can do is hope that
we don't repeat these actions
which brings pain to us and them

What I Feel

you gave me joy
and plenty of happy memories
but did i give you joy?
or did i make you cry?

these questions
i keep asking myself constantly

never for a moment i regret
what we went through
or wish that i could go back
and do things differently

though sometimes i wish
that you ended up in my arms
but that was not to be

the pain i feel
is of no importance to me
as long as
happiness stays in your world

Goodbye Love

love came to me
when i least expected
i threw away my fears of commitment
and let love make
my heart its home

love made me do things
that i never thought i'd do

but something went wrong
along the way
now i can't feel happiness
nor sadness sometimes

the pain love left behind,
is too hard to bear
please don't come back
as my heart doesn't want love,
anytime soon

Boxers

they come in different shapes and designs
and are much better than briefs

some people prefer ones with designs
and a friend of mine has one with,
the superman 'S'

but i like them
to be just black
or ones that do not have designs

it is very comfortable to wear
but sometimes i have to think twice before i wear
i'd choose boxers over briefs any day
though there are times that i cannot wear

my jeans and boxers are good pals
but i can't say the same,
about my khaki's and them

Stranded

lying here in bed
i try to figure out
which road i should choose

one leads to happiness
the other to heartbreak

my heart desires,
the path of happiness
on which i yearn to go with you

but then i realize
that i'm stranded at a junction
as i cannot choose on my own
which path to go in

since you hold the key
to the path i desire

Addiction

this addiction that i've got
has your name all over it
spreading throughout my body
taking over my senses

these eyes can only see you
and can only feel your warmth
the taste of your lips
resides on my tongue

my minds filled with,
thoughts of you
the smell of your perfume
has filled my lungs

a sixth sense called love
which was non existent
has been brought alive by you

Regretful Choices

something pushes me away
i fall back into,
a pit of darkness

i keep falling
without hitting the ground

a spot of light i can see,
far above
it doesn't disappear
gives me hopes of crawling my way up
but still i keep falling

i close my eyes
and images from my past
flashes in front of me

memories of good and bad times
reminiscences the life i've been living
regrets i do have,
about pain i've caused

these regrets within me
should have been made into apologies
which would have not led me here

but it was not to be
as the ego was too much
to accept the fact,
that it was my fault

now i realize
how fragile everything is
and one mistake could,
end it all
in an instance

Drifting Away

she breathed life,
into this lifeless soul
gave me hope
to see a new day
to believe in things
that i didn't believe in

but now she's drifting away
and i don't know why

i've done all i can
what i thought was best
maybe i did something wrong
though it was not intentional

how much it hurts,
i can't explain
words i do not know
to describe,
how it feels

i want you to stay
yet i don't want to force you

the void you created in my heart
i don't think anyone else
can fill

Rain

it disappears for sometime
putting us in great discomfort
power cuts, droughts
and ruined crops

we start missing it
and then start wishing for it

drop by drop it starts to come
a relief for everyone
battered by the heat

it gathers in momentum
accompanied by thunder and lightning

the welcomed guest,
it was once before
is not so anymore

continuous visits
on a daily basis

flooding the roads,
bringing down trees,
accidents on slippery roads
causing chaos everywhere

Murdered by thy Lover

3 months since we met
its been a dream ride so far

an anniversary treat
she's giving me,
today

wine, lingerie & love making till dawn
she's on top,
in control
complaints i have none
as i admire the beauty in front of me

we've been going on for a few hours now
she leans over to the drawer
i look away
and look back at her
unable to,
keep my eyes off her

only to see a knife
pierce through my chest

The Pretender

sugar coated words,
he's full of
saying exactly what she wants to hear

honesty is of no value
only thriving on deception,
to get what he wants

she doesn't realize this
as she's made to believe,
he's the perfect guy

pretending to be there for her,
devoted for her
while doing other women behind her back

his true colors would be seen,
in time
but by then it would be too late

because,
she'll just be another accomplishment
in his so called
wall of fame

Saying Sorry

everyone says it
and expects for forgiveness
or sometimes it's an acknowledgment,
of their mistakes

if they are really 'sorry'
couldn't they have thought twice
before
breaking a heart,
cheating on the one they love,
or hurting someones feelings

'sorry' doesn't fix anything
it's just used to get over their guilt
to help them move on

so,
the next time you hurt someone
don't say 'sorry'
as it's just another word

because if you really did care
you wouldn't have hurt them in the first place

Tears on a Paper

unable to do anything
i'm sitting here at my table
with only a pen and paper in hand

i try to think of something to write
but the pain i suffered,
in your world
blocks my mind from thinking

this pain i need to get over
though i don't know how
i can't talk to anyone
as i'm ashamed,
of what happened

thoughts dried out
and pain filled in
i want to cry
and let it out

but tears won't come
so here i am
pouring the pain onto a paper

The Prostitute

we look at them with disgust
as if they were criminals
but is it really their fault?
that they sell their body
to earn a living

some are tricked,
some are forced

others do it as they've got no choice
to find some money,
and feed their families
or for their brothers and sisters,
to get a proper education

so the next time,
you look at them with frowned eyes
keep in mind
that not all of them
had a choice

Unwritten Letter

i've been trying to write you a letter
but haven't got past a few lines

many lines of words i've written
but ended up scribbling them off

i want to write the perfect words
as an angel deserves nothing less
i'm worried that it might not be good enough
so i keep writing it over and over again

cheesy lines or quotes from Shakespeare
i do not wish to use

i think i'll write,
what i feel in my heart
as honesty i believe,
is the closest to the perfect words

After the Storm

gloomy skies warned me
of the storm that would follow
as rain drops fell
i soaked myself in them

the raindrops cleansed my soul
washing away the pain

the storm passed
and rays of light
pushed through,
the clouds that were left behind

just as the new found strength within me
made me push through
the troubles of the past
and the confusion

the skies are clear now
and the road ahead covered with flowers

an occasional rain would come
but it won't be able to stop,
my journey on this new path

Invisible in Her Eyes

i see her at the hallway
walking towards me
i try to look normal
and talk to her once

she walks past me,
barely acknowledging my existence
and i'm frozen for a second
i turn around to talk to her
but she's long gone

it happens everyday
though i can't seem to get over,
the fact that
in her world
i'll always be invisible

Fake Smiles

smiling faces all around
makes us think that they are all happy
is it just me who's always sad?
i keep asking

but look in closer
and i realize
that sadness is buried beneath the skin
forced to stay deep down

wearing fake smiles
they go about with their lives
for how long can they keep it down?
the sadness and the lies,
will they break out
and take off the fake smiles

Slow Down

all she wanted was to cross the street
to get her little brother an ice cream

were you in such a hurry,
that you couldn't slow down for a minute

an innocent little girl
lying on the yellow crossing
covered with blood,
her smile i cannot see

all alone at home
her brother eagerly awaits
till his loving sister,
brings him an ice cream

but he doesn't know
that she won't be back,
ever again

Memories of a Convict : A Letter From a Prison Cell

the silence surrounds me
accompanied by darkness
the candle in the corner
is non existent

if you were here
you'd feel the smell
but i do not
maybe i'm used to it

sitting in the corner
i look back at my life
what it's been

the time i spent with you
i keep thinking of
i guess it's hard to forget,
the best things in life

i can only think
of how different my life would have been,
if i hadn't pulled the trigger

but i guess it's too late
regrets won't bring you back,
or take me out of this prison cell

Memories of a Convict : Minutes of a Murder

i still can't get it out of my head
the email that i read yesterday
a nest that took years to build
came down,
as i read the last lines of it

the bartender became my best friend
and alcohol replaced the blood within me

consumed with rage,disappointment & hatred
i headed back to the place,
which used to be our nest

there she was,
smiling at the door step
like she always does

i faked a smile
and went to our room
the gun in the drawer
was now in my hand

as she came in
i turned around and hit her
helplessly on the floor,
she tried to move

the gun pointed at her,
with a finger on a trigger
i tried not to give in

but i failed,
the demon within me took over
while i closed my eyes

Was It Love?

i saw you yesterday,
with your new lover
you were smiling and having a good time

was our love so easy to forget?
didn't it mean anything at all?
all those wonderful years,
forgotten within a matter of days

here i am,
drowning in sorrow
while you are swimming in a pool of joy

it'll be easier for me to move on now
knowing that you really didn't love me
as true love is hard to forget

The Secret Affair

we've been doing this for sometime now
sneaking behind everyones back
getting lost in our own fantasies

we lie to the people who love us
and cheat on those who exchanged rings with us
we know it is wrong
yet we continue to do it

there were times when we were worried
that our secret would be unearthed
but now we don't really care

her physique makes me forget
the commitments in my life
and the fear of losing my love
vanishes into thin air

once my hands meets her skin,
to take a journey on her curves
and our lips touch each others
a rush of lusty emotions
runs through our bodies

lust has overtaken the love,
that surrounded our lives
it will be short lived
but till it ends,
we will continue
our secret affair

The Wrong Girl

when i'm walking down the beach with her
holding hands,
watching the sunset
i wish i was with you

i know we said our goodbyes
but i guess my heart didn't agree
cause the love within me
is still for you

i've tried and tried
to ignore what i'm feeling
telling myself,
that i should work it out with her

all efforts have been in vain
as i've come to realize
that i'm with the wrong girl

A New World

we came into this world as strangers
grew up in different worlds
i never knew that you existed

but on a bright sunny day
i saw you across the mall
that's when everything changed

now you are everywhere i go,
everywhere i look
you've become my world

all i want now
is for you to let me into your world
so that,
we can make a world of our own

for you to be in my memories
and me in yours,
here on now
to hold on to each other
to grow old together

Unborn Love That Lives Within

when my eyes are closed
it's your face that i see
when i try to think
i can only think of you

the air around me,
smells like your perfume

what has happened to me,
i'm not quite sure
am i missing you?
or am i falling for you?

uncertainty has crept in
but one thing is certain,
that i don't want to know
what's happening to me
as your love is something,
that i cannot have

my feelings for you
die within me
but i don't feel any pain
i'm not sure why

i won't try to forget
but i'll try to move on
because even though i don't feel it,
the disappointment and the frustration
consumes my soul

Sea of Life

a perfect fit it might seem
surrounded by calm waters
sailing comfortably on the sea of life,
knowing where you are heading to

when you are smooth sailing,
enjoying life in the comfort zone
out of nowhere come a storm
that turns the ship in another direction

you try to go back to the earlier route
the one that you felt comfortable on
but the harder you try
the sooner you learn
that the route cannot be changed
nor there is a comfort zone

as life is full of surprises and sacrifices
which sometimes take you away,
from the place that you believe
is a safe harbor

but after a while you realize
that you adapt to the new route,
in which you feel comfortable

so when there's a change,
don't give up

as life is not a path of roses
but one filled with roses and thorns
the roses makes you happy
but the thorns make you stronger
stronger to fight your way through rough seas

When a Stranger Calls

half an hour past midnight
i was deep in my sleep
a familiar tone in the far distance
starts to creep into my dream

the noise increased
and I woke up
to find out that it’s my phone
which has been ringing

i answered the phone
only to hear an unfamiliar voice

half asleep I was
yet I tried to figure out,
who she is

we talked for a few minutes
then i hung up the phone
too sleepy to think about what happened,
i went back to bed

Eye Contact

you were with him
i was with her
but when our eyes met
we were with each other

people around us forgotten
the attachments let gone
in a moment,
which wouldn't happen again
we were on our own

a word was not spoken
yet we knew exactly how we felt

wanted to stay with you for a while longer
but then i heard something calling
so i turned around
only to find out that it was,
Reality

Powerless

i want to help you
but there's nothing i can do right now
i know i can help you in a few years
will it be worth then

i try my best to come up with something,
to get you out of the mess you are in
none of my efforts have been fruitful
is it my bad luck or yours?

i'm feeling powerless
like a worthless piece of crap,
that gets flushed away everyday

i keep trying
with hope that something would work out
but sometimes i question myself
for how long i can keep trying

The Lonely Cupid

a saviour of love,
he is known as
flying around with his bow and arrow

a hero of the lovers
a foe to a very few
getting men and women to fall in love,
that's his 'super power' they say

but have u noticed,
that he's single too

i for one do not think that he can,
make people fall for each other
after all he still hasn't managed to find his love
so do u think that he can find love for you

a lonely cupid he is,
trying to keep himself occupied
so that he doesnt feel the loneliness

First Day at Work

i'm supposed to be nervous
but i do not feel so
should i b worried
i do not know

lots of new faces everywhere i see
hours of boring presentaions,
some of them i understood
and the others i just stared at

but what i enjoyed the most,
was the time i spent at the coffee shop
plenty of beatiful female souls,
wandering around on their own

i still find it a bit difficult,
to be seated for a several hours
but i guess i'll get used to it,
as days go by
since today is just my first day at work

Regrets of a Player

used to think that it was cool,
to play around with women
ignoring their emotions,
running purely after lust

the more i did,
the better it was
that's what i used to think

in some i felt pure love
which my lifestyle didn't let me pursue

sex,drugs and partying
this is how my life's been
all of that feels like a waste now
as i regret what i've done with my life

gone are the people who used to be with me
during my so called 'glorious' years
after all, the bees hang around
only till the honey is there

In a Strangers Bed

i woke up under a sheet of clothes
with a woman sleeping next to me
i look around to see where i am
but it doesn't look familiar at all

naked under the sheets we are
with her arms around my body

i try to think back
to figure out how
i'm waking up with this gorgeous woman

then i remember this woman i met,
at the mall last night
a simple conversation we had led to this?
i cant believe myself

then it all fits together
and makes sense at all

in a strangers bed i am now
sleeping with his wife

Is This How Love Should Be?

your constant nagging
fuels my willingness,
to get away from you

i keep thinking of
how life would be
when i'm free from your so-called 'love'

you say you love me
but send me through pain
each and everyday

love is supposed to give joy
and feeling of fulfillment
but not pain and misery

if pain and misery,
is all you can give
i think i'll do fine
without your 'love'

Matrimonial

the sunday papers are filled with them
some buy the papers just to go through them
pages filled with details,
of men and women

everyone sounds perfect
slim, fair& good looking
with lots of money
and good jobs

makes me wonder
why they aren't married yet
i smell something fishy
don't you my friend

Faraway Land

it's just like every other day
i keep looking out of this window
but i don't think it's big enough for me,
to see the faraway land

the land that i've,
got my dreams built on..
i wish i could go there now

i guess it's a bit too soon
as the road is still incomplete
from here to the faraway land

so for now
i'm stuck in this cubicle
dreaming of the faraway land

Life Plan

it's the hottest topic around these days...
everyone needs to know,
what my plan for life is going to be
for the next few years to come

to be honest i don't have any
and i'm not worried at all
but i do have a fake plan place
to keep my parents sane

life should be full of suprises
and not a worked out movie script
what if it turns out to be like "English Patient"
that would be so boring

then again i might be wrong
since i'm still finding my way
but i don't think i'll need a plan
a sketch would do just fine

Letting Go

i've waited forever
but now it's time to let go

hope that i had of finding you,
is starting to fade away
the little bit of hope left with me
prevents me from going insane

this has to end
as it consumes my soul
i have to let go
before my sanity leaves me forever

so i hope you won't come around now
when i'm ready to let go,
of you,the disappointments and the regrets
that i have to get rid of

time to turn a new page
to get my life on track
so i'm getting on this ship today
to sail away from you

A Failure in Your World

all you do is find my faults
you never try to appreciate who i am
it's those dreams of perfection that you have,
which makes me a failure in your world

i don't think i can do this anymore
when i've already tried my best
try to take me for who i am
or leave me the fuck alone

my dreams were always to make you happy,
though i've put you through pain sometimes
yet i'm not sorry
as i know i've tried my best

Someone Else's Girl

i see you everyday,
in his arms
the more i see you
the more i wish
that it's me holding on to you

i know i'm not supposed to yearn for you
cos you are someone else's girl
but i can't help it
these feelings keep growing inside of me

feeling of love and lust
which makes me come back to you,
every time i try to move on

when i see you quarreling
it gives me hope
that someday you'll leave him
and come to me

then you'll be my girl,
in my arms
but all that is just hope
as you are still
someone else's girl

Confessions of a Terrorist

to kill them
to make them suffer
that's been the goal
all along

but who should really die?
who should really suffer?
is it the innocent people,
or the bureaucrats?
who've created this demon of war

i don't know
i'm not supposed to think
i should only act

act to please our leaders
whom promise us of a better future
would a better future come from ruthless killing?

even if it does come
will there be anyone left to relish it?,
after all the bloodshed

brothers and sisters i am sorry
i'm not supposed to judge what is right and wrong
for all i'm supposed to do is kill

Calendar Girl

a new year
a new calendar
started to go through it
but a few minutes later,
i was still holding onto january

my eyes didn't move
my hands were still
and then it struck me

the january girl
an angel in pink
was holding me back
i wanted to stay
staring at her all day

You

frozen heart of mine
kept many away
you are the one who got through
to this cold heart of mine

but it only ended
with you being just a memory
as i never got to say
how i feel about you

i wanted..i needed to tell you
that my heart's only for you
but i could not find you
i wish i had taken a risk,tried harder

i could have held you in my arms,
instead of being strangers..
and my wounded heart
would have been full of love for you

The Dream

turn down the lights ..
come cuddle up with me
i wanna feel u next to me
i'd give up everything i have for another night like this

the scent of your body
reminds me of a garden of jasmines
in which i'd stay forever
if u stay by me

suddenly u leave
leaving me in darkness
only to realize
that its always been a dream
a dream that would never come true

School Traffic

it was just another day
was on the way to school as usual
staring out of the window
looking at the busy traffic

suddenly the traffic stopped
and everything was frozen
those 5 seconds of my life
would remain forever golden
cos that's the moment i laid my eyes on you

Haunting Memories

it's 2am
and i'm sitting here...
trying to figure out,
what i'm really thinking about

but something distracts me
is it the sound of the rain drops?
or my memories of you?,
haunting my mind

i want to move on
and i've tried to move on
but yet i am here
the same place i was,
the day that you left me