Attention

you were like
the worst winter
cold as dreary
dark and opaque

and i was
like the summer sun
a smile across my face
trying to brighten you up

too many chilly moments
lead me to confront you
you were unaware
and full of apologies

and now you try
to shine on my world
giving me all the attention
when i require none anymore

it doesn't feel
the same anymore
the ecstatic feeling you gave
has been replaced by awkwardness

mayb it's time
we let autumn come
so we shall fall apart
and wither away

Runaway

i want to runaway
far from here
to breakaway
from these troubles

so i'm forcing everyone
to let me go
doing things to
be rid of the guilt

i'll be glad
if you came along
then we could get lost
in a fantasy

maybe
it's wishful thinking
and you won't
come away with me

those beautiful eyes
your sweet lips
and our conversations
i would miss

either way
i will go
away from this madness
without hesitation

i stood ground
to put up a fight
but now it's time
to runaway

Hanging By A Fingertip

feeling cornered
got nowhere to go
i look around
there's no escape

i feel helpless
will i go down
without a fight
without a chance

desperate for survival
i start to dig a hole
to hide myself
from everything

but it's not helping
as everything starts to haunts me
i hold onto
what little hope i have

and i fight back
against the odds
to see some light
in the darkest times

i want to give up
i want to get away
but here i am fighting
when hope fades every second

I Need

i'll lie to you
i'll cheat on you
i'll hurt you
i'll make you cry

you think
i'll do all of this

i'm not denying
i'm not defending
i'm not giving excuses
i'm not asking for blind faith

but i don't think
that you have a crystal ball either

it is fair
for you to be catious
it is understandable
for you to be scared

scars take time to heal
trust needs time to build
love needs time to grow
and i need time to fight for you

You Don't , I Do

you don't return my calls
you don't reply to my texts
you are making it clear
that you don't want me around

it's not that i don't get it
but i just can't leave you and go
all i want is to talk to you
and to see if you are fine

you are lying there
in bed with him
with so much anger
just to get back at me

and i'm here
all alone
going out of my mind
worrying over you

i keep telling myself
to build up resentment
so it's easier
to detach myself from you

yet it's funny how
i dont feel any hatred
even as i am
walking away