Is This How Love Should Be?

your constant nagging
fuels my willingness,
to get away from you

i keep thinking of
how life would be
when i'm free from your so-called 'love'

you say you love me
but send me through pain
each and everyday

love is supposed to give joy
and feeling of fulfillment
but not pain and misery

if pain and misery,
is all you can give
i think i'll do fine
without your 'love'

Matrimonial

the sunday papers are filled with them
some buy the papers just to go through them
pages filled with details,
of men and women

everyone sounds perfect
slim, fair& good looking
with lots of money
and good jobs

makes me wonder
why they aren't married yet
i smell something fishy
don't you my friend

Faraway Land

it's just like every other day
i keep looking out of this window
but i don't think it's big enough for me,
to see the faraway land

the land that i've,
got my dreams built on..
i wish i could go there now

i guess it's a bit too soon
as the road is still incomplete
from here to the faraway land

so for now
i'm stuck in this cubicle
dreaming of the faraway land

Life Plan

it's the hottest topic around these days...
everyone needs to know,
what my plan for life is going to be
for the next few years to come

to be honest i don't have any
and i'm not worried at all
but i do have a fake plan place
to keep my parents sane

life should be full of suprises
and not a worked out movie script
what if it turns out to be like "English Patient"
that would be so boring

then again i might be wrong
since i'm still finding my way
but i don't think i'll need a plan
a sketch would do just fine

Letting Go

i've waited forever
but now it's time to let go

hope that i had of finding you,
is starting to fade away
the little bit of hope left with me
prevents me from going insane

this has to end
as it consumes my soul
i have to let go
before my sanity leaves me forever

so i hope you won't come around now
when i'm ready to let go,
of you,the disappointments and the regrets
that i have to get rid of

time to turn a new page
to get my life on track
so i'm getting on this ship today
to sail away from you

A Failure in Your World

all you do is find my faults
you never try to appreciate who i am
it's those dreams of perfection that you have,
which makes me a failure in your world

i don't think i can do this anymore
when i've already tried my best
try to take me for who i am
or leave me the fuck alone

my dreams were always to make you happy,
though i've put you through pain sometimes
yet i'm not sorry
as i know i've tried my best

Someone Else's Girl

i see you everyday,
in his arms
the more i see you
the more i wish
that it's me holding on to you

i know i'm not supposed to yearn for you
cos you are someone else's girl
but i can't help it
these feelings keep growing inside of me

feeling of love and lust
which makes me come back to you,
every time i try to move on

when i see you quarreling
it gives me hope
that someday you'll leave him
and come to me

then you'll be my girl,
in my arms
but all that is just hope
as you are still
someone else's girl

Confessions of a Terrorist

to kill them
to make them suffer
that's been the goal
all along

but who should really die?
who should really suffer?
is it the innocent people,
or the bureaucrats?
who've created this demon of war

i don't know
i'm not supposed to think
i should only act

act to please our leaders
whom promise us of a better future
would a better future come from ruthless killing?

even if it does come
will there be anyone left to relish it?,
after all the bloodshed

brothers and sisters i am sorry
i'm not supposed to judge what is right and wrong
for all i'm supposed to do is kill

Calendar Girl

a new year
a new calendar
started to go through it
but a few minutes later,
i was still holding onto january

my eyes didn't move
my hands were still
and then it struck me

the january girl
an angel in pink
was holding me back
i wanted to stay
staring at her all day

You

frozen heart of mine
kept many away
you are the one who got through
to this cold heart of mine

but it only ended
with you being just a memory
as i never got to say
how i feel about you

i wanted..i needed to tell you
that my heart's only for you
but i could not find you
i wish i had taken a risk,tried harder

i could have held you in my arms,
instead of being strangers..
and my wounded heart
would have been full of love for you

The Dream

turn down the lights ..
come cuddle up with me
i wanna feel u next to me
i'd give up everything i have for another night like this

the scent of your body
reminds me of a garden of jasmines
in which i'd stay forever
if u stay by me

suddenly u leave
leaving me in darkness
only to realize
that its always been a dream
a dream that would never come true

School Traffic

it was just another day
was on the way to school as usual
staring out of the window
looking at the busy traffic

suddenly the traffic stopped
and everything was frozen
those 5 seconds of my life
would remain forever golden
cos that's the moment i laid my eyes on you

Haunting Memories

it's 2am
and i'm sitting here...
trying to figure out,
what i'm really thinking about

but something distracts me
is it the sound of the rain drops?
or my memories of you?,
haunting my mind

i want to move on
and i've tried to move on
but yet i am here
the same place i was,
the day that you left me