Through the Lens

i see her
in magazines
flashing a perfect smile
for the camera

her tears get filtered
through the camera lens
and i wonder
who she is hiding from

no one to share
the sadness in her heart
she lives in a fantasy
on her own

friends she has many
none when she needs them
so she turns to darkness
to console her

playing a role
in someone else's play
she's tossed out like waste
once her role is played out

Secretly Falling For You

you came
to light up the darkness around me
so that i saw
what i was missing

when you speak
i watch your lips
create a symphony
the sweetest sound i've heard

and when you walk away
the way that
your hips move
excite me

i could go on
writing about all these
things that you do
which makes my heart skip a beat

but i've wasted enough time
and i want you to know
that i have been
secretly falling for you

Gifts of Guilt

she holds her hair
till he puts on the necklace
which he hopes
would take away the guilt of mistreating her

he kisses her on the neck
to show some affection
but it doesn't bring back
the sparkle in her eyes

and she wonders
if this is how it's going to be
will he try to buy himself
out of all the mistakes he makes

thoughts of leaving him
lingers on her mind
scared of being alone
she decides to play along

Paper Boat

fragile as i am
i pretend to be a boat
made of wood
when it's just paper

helpless on my own
without strength to carry myself
i depend on you
to keep me afloat in life

i cannot control where i am heading
i do not know my destination
hoplessly praying
for a miracle

that my journey ends
in a better place
before i'm soaked in my mistakes
beyond redemption

Stolen Innocence

tell me who stole
the innocence from her eyes
i don't know whom to blame
its gone without a trace

trying to act older
when she's just a kid
looking away from
the best years of her life

blindfolded by insecurity
she turns towards
things that are destructive
desperate to fit in

i hope it's temporarily
and she finds her way back
without being a faded picture
in the album of life

Pieces

pieces of my heart
i try to put together
it doesn't seem to hold
like it used to before

pieces of my life
i see scattered everyhwere
the ones with you in it
i can't seem to find

pieces of our love
i've been trying to submerge
efforts have been invain
it keeps resurfacing

everything i go through
everything i've been through
reminds me of how
hard it is to replace

Let Me Be

a frozen heart
doesn't feel love
doesn't feel pain
doesn't care about anything

that's how it is going to be
now that we are not meant to be
nothing gets in
nothing gets out

i remember opening up my heart
i remember falling insanely in love
but it's all in the past
i have no regards for it

i've run out of love
whilst trying to find my way
out of the rubble of my past
so let me be

Holding On

just when i was
about to give up
things kept falling around me
hope was gone

but i'm starting to see
rays of hope
coming through
the gloomy skies

should i give up now
or hold on for
a little bit longer
than i expected

it is a gamble
but i guess
i have to take my chances
nothing's written in stone

i can hang on and keep my chin up
but it's an uphill battle
when you are so close
and yet so far away

Time Out

what am i doing
i ask myself
but i hardly get an answer
and i'm happy with that

howcome i'm happy
without knowing what i'm doing
maybe i'm happy being confused
rather than having to take sides

i tell that i'm done with love
but why do look for romance
i tell that i'm back doing one nighters
but why have i skipped those nights

i'm saying no to commitments
i'm saying no to flings
maybe it's just that
i need sometime for myself

Miss Independent

she says she's fine on her own
that she doesn't need anyone around
trying to live life
as miss independent

she doesn't listen
or take advice
because she thinks
it makes her look weak

she lets in all the sugar-coaters
who leaves as soon as dawn sets in
pushes out anyone
willing to grow old with her

then every night
when she goes to bed
with no one to
comfort or talk to her

she starts to doubt
what she says
but too stubborn to admit
she puts up a face

so she goes on
living alone
just because
she wants to be miss independent