Time Out

what am i doing
i ask myself
but i hardly get an answer
and i'm happy with that

howcome i'm happy
without knowing what i'm doing
maybe i'm happy being confused
rather than having to take sides

i tell that i'm done with love
but why do look for romance
i tell that i'm back doing one nighters
but why have i skipped those nights

i'm saying no to commitments
i'm saying no to flings
maybe it's just that
i need sometime for myself

Miss Independent

she says she's fine on her own
that she doesn't need anyone around
trying to live life
as miss independent

she doesn't listen
or take advice
because she thinks
it makes her look weak

she lets in all the sugar-coaters
who leaves as soon as dawn sets in
pushes out anyone
willing to grow old with her

then every night
when she goes to bed
with no one to
comfort or talk to her

she starts to doubt
what she says
but too stubborn to admit
she puts up a face

so she goes on
living alone
just because
she wants to be miss independent

Choices

sometimes we drift away
from the things that matter
and we drift along
with the things that don't

i'm on a chosen path
with intentions of
bringing about positive change
to the ones i love

it's not always
cruising on a highway
instead it's a crossroad after the other
i try my best to pick the right way

but i can't help but wonder
if i'm making the right choices
or if i'm walking in the dark
making things worse

there's is only one way to find out
if my choices were right
that is by seeing things through
to the end

I Won't Slow Down

everyone takes their time
to complaint about my addiction to speed
though none takes time
to think why i'm addicted

is it the adnereline rush
or the satisfaction of being ahead
i'm sorry to disappoint
because it is neither

all the little things in my head
that makes me question my sanity
all play catch up
when i'm behind the wheel

maybe i take an extreme route
to reach my moment of clarity
but i'd rather forget it all for a second
than having to slow down

Hero or Zero

we all want to be a hero
driven by our childhood fantasies
the desire to be remembered
among billions of others like us

comics and cartoons
based on heroes
frontpage articles and celebrity status
it's a tempting lifestyle

but i don't want to be a hero
i want to be her zero
who gets to hold her in his arms
instead of running away to save the world

so if someone is writing my destiny
or if i have to write it on my own
i only have one wish
to be the zero of her life

Curtain Falls

so many things in my head
i don't know what to think
succumbing to loneliness
my soul gives away

it's hard to focus
when i'm nothing but a mess
i slip into darkness
as hope starts to fade

how can i move on
when there's so much to let go
holding on to what i've done
is not helping either

but it's too late
to turn back and regret
and it's too hard
to look forward with hope

my head is spinning
from endless thinking
as i wait for
the curtain to fall on today

Seasons of Our Love

warmth of our budding love
melted the wall between us
our love started to grow
like flowers in the spring

days went by
and we grew closer
love started to blossom
the summer of our love begun

unable to stop the inevitable
we started falling apart
like leaves from a tree
autumn had descended upon us

shattered and broken
we grew apart with cold hearts
frozen with time
we walked away alone

Life After You

everyone wants to fall in love
it's not a cliche
just the truth
that we sometimes look away

i was one of them
who looked away
but you changed all that
turned me into a lover

then it all fell to the ground
like a house of cards
love has left me
though i still yearn for companionship

and i found that in someone else
it was not love
but moments of sensuality
which was enough to get me through

here i am now with a stranger
whom i hardly know
love never crosses our mind
yet our bodies constantly collide

she keeps me busy
through these dark times
but when i let my mind wander
it always finds you

Coward

maybe you think i'm a coward
because of the way i've acted
i do not blame you
i know i've been one

it's not easy
to explain the circumstances
it'll only come out
as a justification

i don't want to give excuses
and i'm not saying sorry
no word can make up
for the pain i've caused

i was caught in the middle
between two worlds i love
so i did my best
to bring happiness to them both

i never wanted anything for myself
i only wanted happiness for the ones i love
maybe i was a coward for being selfless
and not pursuing what could have been

Whatever

whatever
is what i say
when i don't say
what i say to say

why does a daughter
have to lie to her mother
why can't a husband
be honest with his wife

why do we overlook
the little things in life
and wait till a snowball
turns into an avalanche

is it because
we are too afraid
of the truth
and its consequences

or do we try to lookaway
till we are push against the wall
and we are left with
no other choice