Back at Square One

i locked my heart away
and kept my emotions at bay
so that i cant get
far away from you

thing's weren't ecstatic
neither were they gloomy
i just got along
without you

all that effort
to forget what i had
all these efforts
to feel numb

sometimes i wonder
if it's all worth it
the trouble i go through
to forget you

but all it takes
is just one call from you
to break it all down
and i'm back at square one

Tonight

i can't feel
the love has burnt out
i can't see
the anger has blinded me

you and me
are nothing but
a disaster
in the waiting

i'm seeking refuge
in a place i'm not invited
though it hardly matters
i don't give a damn

so lets not get
ahead of ourselves
this starts and ends
tonight

Distant Memory

you were taken away
just like that
one day you were here
the next day you were not

they asked me if i'm ok
they asked me if i'm sad
i was not ok
i was devastated

frozen in shock
hardly shed a tear at your departure
but that doesn't mean
i loved you any less

who pulls all the strings i thought
with no regard for anyone
how can they take someone away
without a warning

i learnt to move on
just like everyone else
though at times i feel betrayed
i feel cheated

you were supposed to
be apart of my life
instead you ended up being
a distant memory

Forbidden Fruit

snatched away from
someone else's
loosely held hand
without hesitation

she lay in bed
waiting to be taken in
to be finally appreciated
for the beauty she posses

fed by the sweetness of her mouth
captivated by her aroused peaks
i started to descend
towards the center of her paradise

her hidden lips whistled desire
as i explored the forbidden land
like a pirate
hunting treasure

my mouth needed no invitaion
it pierced through her broken defenses
to the lquid heat filled
apex of her thighs

her gentle moans
grew into monsterous screams
and i threw away the fondling
to give into her needs

her legs rested on my shoulders
inviting me in
i gladly slid into her warmth
whilst reaching towards to kiss her

upon meeting her sensual gaze
i realised that
it was the start
of a long night ahead

Attention

you were like
the worst winter
cold as dreary
dark and opaque

and i was
like the summer sun
a smile across my face
trying to brighten you up

too many chilly moments
lead me to confront you
you were unaware
and full of apologies

and now you try
to shine on my world
giving me all the attention
when i require none anymore

it doesn't feel
the same anymore
the ecstatic feeling you gave
has been replaced by awkwardness

mayb it's time
we let autumn come
so we shall fall apart
and wither away

Runaway

i want to runaway
far from here
to breakaway
from these troubles

so i'm forcing everyone
to let me go
doing things to
be rid of the guilt

i'll be glad
if you came along
then we could get lost
in a fantasy

maybe
it's wishful thinking
and you won't
come away with me

those beautiful eyes
your sweet lips
and our conversations
i would miss

either way
i will go
away from this madness
without hesitation

i stood ground
to put up a fight
but now it's time
to runaway

Hanging By A Fingertip

feeling cornered
got nowhere to go
i look around
there's no escape

i feel helpless
will i go down
without a fight
without a chance

desperate for survival
i start to dig a hole
to hide myself
from everything

but it's not helping
as everything starts to haunts me
i hold onto
what little hope i have

and i fight back
against the odds
to see some light
in the darkest times

i want to give up
i want to get away
but here i am fighting
when hope fades every second

I Need

i'll lie to you
i'll cheat on you
i'll hurt you
i'll make you cry

you think
i'll do all of this

i'm not denying
i'm not defending
i'm not giving excuses
i'm not asking for blind faith

but i don't think
that you have a crystal ball either

it is fair
for you to be catious
it is understandable
for you to be scared

scars take time to heal
trust needs time to build
love needs time to grow
and i need time to fight for you

You Don't , I Do

you don't return my calls
you don't reply to my texts
you are making it clear
that you don't want me around

it's not that i don't get it
but i just can't leave you and go
all i want is to talk to you
and to see if you are fine

you are lying there
in bed with him
with so much anger
just to get back at me

and i'm here
all alone
going out of my mind
worrying over you

i keep telling myself
to build up resentment
so it's easier
to detach myself from you

yet it's funny how
i dont feel any hatred
even as i am
walking away

Let Down

you say i'm acting weird
that i'm being someone else
well i've got news for you
i've been this when you aren't around

how can you walk in
and start looking for my smile
it's been on a break
ever since you wanted to take one

then you start accusing me
of being all gloomy and dull
what else did u expect
when you walked away with my soul

maybe i went all the way
when i should've stopped half way
but now my only fear
is that i would walk away

not just from you
but everyone else
saddened by let downs
that i'll choose to be on my own