Love Over Lust

a different girl every night
no emotional attachments
everything was just physical

at first it seemed ideal
no commitments
no attachments
it was very convenient

but now i need to rearrange my priorities
as this doesn't feel right anymore
the one night stands
no longer fulfill my desires

the longing for true love has overtaken the lust
i want it to be more than physical attraction
the things i pushed away
i'm trying to pull back

Black and White

nothing is black and white
took me a while to realize
everything seems gray now
i'm caught up between right and wrong

i look back at the decisions i've made
and i keep thinking
if i've made the right choice

right or wrong
there's nothing much i can do
but from here onwards
i'll give it more thought

then again there's not much we can do
what's right for me
could be wrong for you
i guess i'm back at square one
caught up between right and wrong

Mom and Dad

came to this world
several months before i was due
had you worried
for the first few years

growing up i know i wasn't the easiest
but still you made no complains

you never forced me to do anything
rather you,
guided me through whatever that is i wanted to do

arguments we've had
only because you wanted the best for me

you gave me everything i wanted
and a whole lot more
all of which i took for granted

i've complained about,
not having angels in my life
but i was wrong
two angels have been with me
since the day i was born

thank you,
mom and dad
love you loads

Choices

excuses we give
about not having a choice
but is it true?
do we always end up not having a choice
or do we push ourselves to that place

sometimes choices aren't made
as it's easier to go with the flow
or responsibilities get in the way
and other times we are scared to,
step out of our comfort zones

the next times you complain about not having a choice
think again
did you really not have a choice?
or did you pretend it is so
since it is the easier that way

Where Are the Angels?

we've read in fairy tales
and heard in songs
stories about angels

possessed with beauty,
which can take our breath away
kindness which can melt a devils heart
saviors,
who guides us through rough times

growing up,
we were given hope
that,
someday an angel would come into our lives
to make everything alright

twenty two years and counting
i'm yet to see one
all i have seen
are people pretending to be angels
misleading everyone around

makes me question myself
where are the angels?
are they for real?
or just false hope
for us to hold onto,
when all is lost

The Orphan

12th birthday of mine
i will never forget
not because i got,
a new playstation

but because that's when i found out
that i was adopted

mom and dad said they wanted to talk
their smiling faces overshadowed by nervousness

i felt that something was wrong
but i never saw it coming
for a few minutes,
everything was frozen
we just stared at each other

tears fell down our cheeks
but then i smiled

as i realized that
two strangers made me their own
and treated me like their own flesh and blood
when my own didn't want me

Coffee Shop Girl

last april
i met her at the airport
but keeping in touch
never crossed our minds

few days back
at a coffee shop
an angel i saw
when least expected

amazed by her beauty
i kept looking at her
i did not realize
how stalker like it might have been

unable to get her off my mind
i searched everywhere for her
in an yearbook thrown away
i found who i was looking for

happiness fills my world these days
as she resides in my mind

A Beautiful Story

memories of you
will never be erased
so don't think that,
i've forgotten you babe
though we hardly talk now

we wrote our story
five years ago
after all these years
it's still my favorite story

many talk about moving on
once everything has ended
but what we had was a fairytale
things like that can't be replaced
and i don't want it to be

A Shadow I Was

i know you haven't seen me around
that's because,
i went away

no longer will i be there
to guide you

do not expect to see me around
since i won't be your shadow anymore
nor will i be there along the way

you took me for granted
when i was by your side
i don't think i'll let that happen
ever again

if you want to see me around
you'll have to make me your destination
as i won't be a passenger anymore

Back from Work

going through paperwork
giving out orders
looking into tasks
that's how my day has been

back here in my sofa
i sit back
and watch you
get busy with the housework

baby come here
let me hold you in my arms
kiss your neck
and caress your hair

i want to breathe in,
the smell of your skin
to breathe out,
the stress within

so come to me baby
into my arms