The Release

the chills of this rainy night

gives me goose bumps

as i lay in bed

and i start to think of you

how you'd keep me warm

through the night

little by little

my mind gets filled

by thoughts of you

with each budding thought

i feel myself grow

warmth trickles down my body

what i would give

to capture your strawberry lips

on mine

how good it would feel

to embed myself in you

whilst we curl up together

tonight it shall not be

but still you fill me with excitement

which I release late into the night

Goodbye

there are times
we overlook the obvious
focused on the things
that drive some of us to insanity

but i feel blessed
to have realized
that we all have to leave
sooner or later

so this is me
finding my closure
because i know
it can be sooner rather than later

i'm sorry i didn't mean to
bring upon pain
nor did i intend to
ignore you

just like everyone
i got caught up in life
i'm on the way out
and i'm at peace

thank you for keeping me going
when i wanted to call quits
so this is my goodbye
to the people i love

Absence of Conscience

there she is right across the table
one look at her
and all i can think
is the things i want to do to her tonight

she can just tell
what i'm thinking
she smiles at me whilst she bites her lip
as if she approves my train of thought

i open the door for her to get in
and while i close it
i smile to myself sarcastically
what a sensitive wuss i used to be

all that's long gone
now everyone is
just another girl
no ones getting through to me

so lets drop the cotton
and get between the linen
it's time to celebrate
my absence of conscience

Mugshot

you call me up late
and start asking 101 questions
if i'm out?
who i'm with?

and i'm wondering
why do you care
when i say nothing
you get on my case

for a minute
i'm fooled
to think
you might care

they say actions
speak louder than words
but sometimes your words
can be so convincing

though i'm fooled
for a split second
your mugshot is etched in my mind
because you are guilty of being a bitch

One More Thing

with tears in my eyes

i read the news of your loss

and it took a little while 

to sink in

even though i didn't know you

i felt as if i lost one of my own

that's when i realized

your impact on our world

people speak of 

the amazing things

that you brought

into our world

but more than that

i am forever grateful to you

for teaching me

that there's nothing wrong in being a dreamer

Ilegal

you are with him
but you still
get mad at me
when i'm with someone else

and i
feel like
i'm cheating
when i'm with someone else

you say
you feel
exactly the same
when you are with him

then why are we apart
i sometimes wonder
and it hits me
you are bound by legality

100 Things

i can say a 100 things
show you a world
built in a fantasy
that never would be true

but you should know
you should feel
if my words are just words
or if they are something more

i'll save my words
for when it matters
just stay away
from the sugar coaters

because i'll do what i have to do
i'll say what i have to say
so baby hold tight
don't let me go

The River

an earthquake of heartache
broke me into pieces
and a thunderstorm of loneliness
took me far away from everyone

you came from nowhere
gushing out like a river
collecting the broken pieces
and bringing them ashore

now you nurture me
like a mother to a child
helping me to recover
from an absence of life

Lie To Me

tell me that you are making up
the things that you say
and when i'm waking up
it all will be lies

so none of this will
stand in the way
and you don't have to go back
into his arms

stay here with me
i want you by my side
but it's just wishful thinking
and i can't help it

it hurts so much
to let you go
and to watch you
drift away

helpless and stranded
i hope you
lied to me
this one time

Diving In

i let go
i broke free

i played the savior
i played the villain
i played the lover
i played it all

not because i wanted to
but because i had to
it's all done
and none matters anymore

all of that
and everything else
prepared me for
one last battle

so here i am
ready to dive in
uncertain if i would
surface to see the light

eventually we all wither away
so i'm taking my chances
to face it on my terms
and with it to take away the darkness