Mugshot

you call me up late
and start asking 101 questions
if i'm out?
who i'm with?

and i'm wondering
why do you care
when i say nothing
you get on my case

for a minute
i'm fooled
to think
you might care

they say actions
speak louder than words
but sometimes your words
can be so convincing

though i'm fooled
for a split second
your mugshot is etched in my mind
because you are guilty of being a bitch

One More Thing

with tears in my eyes

i read the news of your loss

and it took a little while 

to sink in

even though i didn't know you

i felt as if i lost one of my own

that's when i realized

your impact on our world

people speak of 

the amazing things

that you brought

into our world

but more than that

i am forever grateful to you

for teaching me

that there's nothing wrong in being a dreamer

Ilegal

you are with him
but you still
get mad at me
when i'm with someone else

and i
feel like
i'm cheating
when i'm with someone else

you say
you feel
exactly the same
when you are with him

then why are we apart
i sometimes wonder
and it hits me
you are bound by legality

100 Things

i can say a 100 things
show you a world
built in a fantasy
that never would be true

but you should know
you should feel
if my words are just words
or if they are something more

i'll save my words
for when it matters
just stay away
from the sugar coaters

because i'll do what i have to do
i'll say what i have to say
so baby hold tight
don't let me go

The River

an earthquake of heartache
broke me into pieces
and a thunderstorm of loneliness
took me far away from everyone

you came from nowhere
gushing out like a river
collecting the broken pieces
and bringing them ashore

now you nurture me
like a mother to a child
helping me to recover
from an absence of life

Lie To Me

tell me that you are making up
the things that you say
and when i'm waking up
it all will be lies

so none of this will
stand in the way
and you don't have to go back
into his arms

stay here with me
i want you by my side
but it's just wishful thinking
and i can't help it

it hurts so much
to let you go
and to watch you
drift away

helpless and stranded
i hope you
lied to me
this one time

Diving In

i let go
i broke free

i played the savior
i played the villain
i played the lover
i played it all

not because i wanted to
but because i had to
it's all done
and none matters anymore

all of that
and everything else
prepared me for
one last battle

so here i am
ready to dive in
uncertain if i would
surface to see the light

eventually we all wither away
so i'm taking my chances
to face it on my terms
and with it to take away the darkness

From Gold to Stone

i never had to break sweat
i never had to worry about anything
everything i touched turned gold
life was one big party

and then it wasn't
piece by piece things fell apart
everything i touched
turned into stone

sometimes it's so confusing
when i try to figure out
what went wrong
but i've realized it's all a test

i don't really care anymore
i'm just doing what i think is right
so here's my apology
if i didn't measure up to your expectations

you can paint me the villain
or you can erase me completely
i'm more than happy being forgotten
because i stopped giving a damn long time ago

Walking Away

one step forward
one step backward
i was held back
from acting on my thoughts

feeling restless
caged and battered
often i wondered
when will i break free

and finally
my mind is at peace
as it feels right
to walk away

Run No More

i'm running away
from it all
i'm running towards
the unknown

i'm leaving behind
everything that has
tormented me
gifting me with pain

i hung on for too long
hoping to see the best
but all i got in return
is a shattered world

so i started running away
as fast as i could
even before i made up my mind
as to where i was heading

i think i should slow down
to walk the next few steps
while i decide
where i should be