The River

an earthquake of heartache
broke me into pieces
and a thunderstorm of loneliness
took me far away from everyone

you came from nowhere
gushing out like a river
collecting the broken pieces
and bringing them ashore

now you nurture me
like a mother to a child
helping me to recover
from an absence of life

Lie To Me

tell me that you are making up
the things that you say
and when i'm waking up
it all will be lies

so none of this will
stand in the way
and you don't have to go back
into his arms

stay here with me
i want you by my side
but it's just wishful thinking
and i can't help it

it hurts so much
to let you go
and to watch you
drift away

helpless and stranded
i hope you
lied to me
this one time

Diving In

i let go
i broke free

i played the savior
i played the villain
i played the lover
i played it all

not because i wanted to
but because i had to
it's all done
and none matters anymore

all of that
and everything else
prepared me for
one last battle

so here i am
ready to dive in
uncertain if i would
surface to see the light

eventually we all wither away
so i'm taking my chances
to face it on my terms
and with it to take away the darkness

From Gold to Stone

i never had to break sweat
i never had to worry about anything
everything i touched turned gold
life was one big party

and then it wasn't
piece by piece things fell apart
everything i touched
turned into stone

sometimes it's so confusing
when i try to figure out
what went wrong
but i've realized it's all a test

i don't really care anymore
i'm just doing what i think is right
so here's my apology
if i didn't measure up to your expectations

you can paint me the villain
or you can erase me completely
i'm more than happy being forgotten
because i stopped giving a damn long time ago

Walking Away

one step forward
one step backward
i was held back
from acting on my thoughts

feeling restless
caged and battered
often i wondered
when will i break free

and finally
my mind is at peace
as it feels right
to walk away

Run No More

i'm running away
from it all
i'm running towards
the unknown

i'm leaving behind
everything that has
tormented me
gifting me with pain

i hung on for too long
hoping to see the best
but all i got in return
is a shattered world

so i started running away
as fast as i could
even before i made up my mind
as to where i was heading

i think i should slow down
to walk the next few steps
while i decide
where i should be

Borrowed Time

things can be great
it can feel like a dream
and little do we realize
that this would end soon

there's nothing much
that we can do
we just have to make way
for the inevitable

but yet we try to
stretch it beyond
what it's supposed to be
to live on borrowed time

though it lasts for a while
it never feels the same
so it makes me think
if it's worth it all

should i rather
let it end
when it is
supposed to be

Back at Square One

i locked my heart away
and kept my emotions at bay
so that i cant get
far away from you

thing's weren't ecstatic
neither were they gloomy
i just got along
without you

all that effort
to forget what i had
all these efforts
to feel numb

sometimes i wonder
if it's all worth it
the trouble i go through
to forget you

but all it takes
is just one call from you
to break it all down
and i'm back at square one

Tonight

i can't feel
the love has burnt out
i can't see
the anger has blinded me

you and me
are nothing but
a disaster
in the waiting

i'm seeking refuge
in a place i'm not invited
though it hardly matters
i don't give a damn

so lets not get
ahead of ourselves
this starts and ends
tonight

Distant Memory

you were taken away
just like that
one day you were here
the next day you were not

they asked me if i'm ok
they asked me if i'm sad
i was not ok
i was devastated

frozen in shock
hardly shed a tear at your departure
but that doesn't mean
i loved you any less

who pulls all the strings i thought
with no regard for anyone
how can they take someone away
without a warning

i learnt to move on
just like everyone else
though at times i feel betrayed
i feel cheated

you were supposed to
be apart of my life
instead you ended up being
a distant memory