Can't Resist You

i try really hard

to keep myself away

so that i don’t end up

hurting you

but somehow 

i do

cause you the pain

that i didn’t intend to

the fault is mine

i just can’t resist you

tell me how

i can get away

the touch of your hand

the taste of your lips

the warmth beneath you

makes it impossible 

i know its not right 

to act like this

tell me how to resist

perfection

all i have is hope

and nothing else

that i will 

fix myself for you 

There You Weren't

There you were 

With me

Like we used to

For a moment 

I felt like everything 

Was ok

Only for it to be

Replaced 

By a feeling of doubt

In the early hours of the morning

I woke up

Hoping to see her pretty face next to me

Only to realize that nothing has changed 

As I lay there

By myself 

Your Memory

I know that 

I should not be thinking

Of what you 

might be doing

Or whether that 

you miss me

The way that 

I miss you

Every time i hear some good news

I pick up the phone to call you

only to realise 

that it’s all in the past

And when things

Aren't going well

I remember 

How you used to console me

You were my saving grace

my pillar of strength

And Still in my darkest hours

Your memory gives me strength

Cut The Cord

i cut the cord

to let u go

i can't believe 

i let things be

i must have been crazy

out of my mind

if all i wanted was to forget

i have failed

since that day

i've thought of you

every single day

with a tear in my eye

i do not plan 

to call you back

but i fight the urge

to pick up the phone

even if i do 

i don't know what to say

should i say sorry 

or that i missed you

either way 

it makes no difference

our ship sailed 

long time ago

Lost

we lost it all

that's what i've been

trying to forget

all this time

but it's a different world

in my head

thoughts of you still linger

whilst the love burns bright

i let myself go

when i had to let you go

things spiralled out of control

and i never found my way home

baby with or without me

you should be happy

so i smile and pretend 

that everything is fine

Seeking a Prince

crying themselves to sleep

unable to fight the sadness

all their lives they've waited

for a prince in a shining armour

instead it has been

a jester after jester

causing nothing but grievance 

taking away the hope

yet the desire for happiness

from fulfilling

dreams of the perfect life

remains

overlooked and unappreciated

they stay in a cycle of sadness

hoping for that prince

who would break them out

Remember

you tell me to remember

the things we used to do

you tell me to remember

the things we used to say

how can i remember

when there's nothing to remember

because all we had were

lies and deceit

so let me remind you

the lies you used to say

and also remind you

how you used to hurt me at will

i don't want to remember

all those painful things

so here i am pretending

that i don't remember the pain

Sadness in Her Eyes

i see the sadness in her eyes

and how she tries to force a smile

my heartbreaks to watch her

go thorough such misery

i ask her what happened

worried that she might be in trouble

and she replies

it's what has not happened

broken dreams and promises

haunting her mind

none to find solace in

these troubled times

what saddens more

is how some try to exploit

her pain for their gain

without any regard

walk away sweet baby

walk away from deceit and misery

break free

to rise on your own two feet

By My Side

i'm used to cold nights

but it's different tonight

you lay by my side

to warm me up

all those late nights

which kept me up till dawn

seems no more 

at least for tonight

i wake up to you sweet scent

and i watch your face light up 

by the sunshine creeping in

i feel like i'm dreaming

mesmerized by your beauty 

i wrap myself around you

only to be enticed 

to explore you once more

Wall Of Lies

she says goodbye to everything
to hide behind his wall of lies
just because he convinces her
it is for love

meanwhile he lives his life
with no regard for what she needs
and she is not the only dame
he is with

but she thinks
she should bare it all
out of love
and for love

with dying hope
that things will fall in to place
however what she doesn't know
is that he won't change

he'll continue with his
deceitful ways
in the end
you'll just be hurt and alone

Document My Heart

i feel like a fool

documenting my feelings

when i'm broken and battered

lying here without a clue

i keep telling myself

that i should just

get up

and move on

yet there's a sweetness

in the pain

maybe because

it's the only thing that's left of you

A Kiss From You

one kiss from you
takes me back
to the time
when things were good

it makes me wonder
if this is where i should be
maybe it's time
and then i think otherwise

waking up next to you
with you tucked in me
i stroke my fingers
through your hair

you turn around
and i greet you with a kiss
you smile and
close your eyes

i should stop thinking
as it distracts me
from savoring
these sweet moments with you

The Release

the chills of this rainy night

gives me goose bumps

as i lay in bed

and i start to think of you

how you'd keep me warm

through the night

little by little

my mind gets filled

by thoughts of you

with each budding thought

i feel myself grow

warmth trickles down my body

what i would give

to capture your strawberry lips

on mine

how good it would feel

to embed myself in you

whilst we curl up together

tonight it shall not be

but still you fill me with excitement

which I release late into the night

Goodbye

there are times
we overlook the obvious
focused on the things
that drive some of us to insanity

but i feel blessed
to have realized
that we all have to leave
sooner or later

so this is me
finding my closure
because i know
it can be sooner rather than later

i'm sorry i didn't mean to
bring upon pain
nor did i intend to
ignore you

just like everyone
i got caught up in life
i'm on the way out
and i'm at peace

thank you for keeping me going
when i wanted to call quits
so this is my goodbye
to the people i love

Absence of Conscience

there she is right across the table
one look at her
and all i can think
is the things i want to do to her tonight

she can just tell
what i'm thinking
she smiles at me whilst she bites her lip
as if she approves my train of thought

i open the door for her to get in
and while i close it
i smile to myself sarcastically
what a sensitive wuss i used to be

all that's long gone
now everyone is
just another girl
no ones getting through to me

so lets drop the cotton
and get between the linen
it's time to celebrate
my absence of conscience

Mugshot

you call me up late
and start asking 101 questions
if i'm out?
who i'm with?

and i'm wondering
why do you care
when i say nothing
you get on my case

for a minute
i'm fooled
to think
you might care

they say actions
speak louder than words
but sometimes your words
can be so convincing

though i'm fooled
for a split second
your mugshot is etched in my mind
because you are guilty of being a bitch

One More Thing

with tears in my eyes

i read the news of your loss

and it took a little while 

to sink in

even though i didn't know you

i felt as if i lost one of my own

that's when i realized

your impact on our world

people speak of 

the amazing things

that you brought

into our world

but more than that

i am forever grateful to you

for teaching me

that there's nothing wrong in being a dreamer

Ilegal

you are with him
but you still
get mad at me
when i'm with someone else

and i
feel like
i'm cheating
when i'm with someone else

you say
you feel
exactly the same
when you are with him

then why are we apart
i sometimes wonder
and it hits me
you are bound by legality

100 Things

i can say a 100 things
show you a world
built in a fantasy
that never would be true

but you should know
you should feel
if my words are just words
or if they are something more

i'll save my words
for when it matters
just stay away
from the sugar coaters

because i'll do what i have to do
i'll say what i have to say
so baby hold tight
don't let me go

The River

an earthquake of heartache
broke me into pieces
and a thunderstorm of loneliness
took me far away from everyone

you came from nowhere
gushing out like a river
collecting the broken pieces
and bringing them ashore

now you nurture me
like a mother to a child
helping me to recover
from an absence of life