Wall Of Lies

she says goodbye to everything
to hide behind his wall of lies
just because he convinces her
it is for love

meanwhile he lives his life
with no regard for what she needs
and she is not the only dame
he is with

but she thinks
she should bare it all
out of love
and for love

with dying hope
that things will fall in to place
however what she doesn't know
is that he won't change

he'll continue with his
deceitful ways
in the end
you'll just be hurt and alone

Document My Heart

i feel like a fool

documenting my feelings

when i'm broken and battered

lying here without a clue

i keep telling myself

that i should just

get up

and move on

yet there's a sweetness

in the pain

maybe because

it's the only thing that's left of you

A Kiss From You

one kiss from you
takes me back
to the time
when things were good

it makes me wonder
if this is where i should be
maybe it's time
and then i think otherwise

waking up next to you
with you tucked in me
i stroke my fingers
through your hair

you turn around
and i greet you with a kiss
you smile and
close your eyes

i should stop thinking
as it distracts me
from savoring
these sweet moments with you

The Release

the chills of this rainy night

gives me goose bumps

as i lay in bed

and i start to think of you

how you'd keep me warm

through the night

little by little

my mind gets filled

by thoughts of you

with each budding thought

i feel myself grow

warmth trickles down my body

what i would give

to capture your strawberry lips

on mine

how good it would feel

to embed myself in you

whilst we curl up together

tonight it shall not be

but still you fill me with excitement

which I release late into the night

Goodbye

there are times
we overlook the obvious
focused on the things
that drive some of us to insanity

but i feel blessed
to have realized
that we all have to leave
sooner or later

so this is me
finding my closure
because i know
it can be sooner rather than later

i'm sorry i didn't mean to
bring upon pain
nor did i intend to
ignore you

just like everyone
i got caught up in life
i'm on the way out
and i'm at peace

thank you for keeping me going
when i wanted to call quits
so this is my goodbye
to the people i love

Absence of Conscience

there she is right across the table
one look at her
and all i can think
is the things i want to do to her tonight

she can just tell
what i'm thinking
she smiles at me whilst she bites her lip
as if she approves my train of thought

i open the door for her to get in
and while i close it
i smile to myself sarcastically
what a sensitive wuss i used to be

all that's long gone
now everyone is
just another girl
no ones getting through to me

so lets drop the cotton
and get between the linen
it's time to celebrate
my absence of conscience

Mugshot

you call me up late
and start asking 101 questions
if i'm out?
who i'm with?

and i'm wondering
why do you care
when i say nothing
you get on my case

for a minute
i'm fooled
to think
you might care

they say actions
speak louder than words
but sometimes your words
can be so convincing

though i'm fooled
for a split second
your mugshot is etched in my mind
because you are guilty of being a bitch

One More Thing

with tears in my eyes

i read the news of your loss

and it took a little while 

to sink in

even though i didn't know you

i felt as if i lost one of my own

that's when i realized

your impact on our world

people speak of 

the amazing things

that you brought

into our world

but more than that

i am forever grateful to you

for teaching me

that there's nothing wrong in being a dreamer

Ilegal

you are with him
but you still
get mad at me
when i'm with someone else

and i
feel like
i'm cheating
when i'm with someone else

you say
you feel
exactly the same
when you are with him

then why are we apart
i sometimes wonder
and it hits me
you are bound by legality

100 Things

i can say a 100 things
show you a world
built in a fantasy
that never would be true

but you should know
you should feel
if my words are just words
or if they are something more

i'll save my words
for when it matters
just stay away
from the sugar coaters

because i'll do what i have to do
i'll say what i have to say
so baby hold tight
don't let me go

The River

an earthquake of heartache
broke me into pieces
and a thunderstorm of loneliness
took me far away from everyone

you came from nowhere
gushing out like a river
collecting the broken pieces
and bringing them ashore

now you nurture me
like a mother to a child
helping me to recover
from an absence of life

Lie To Me

tell me that you are making up
the things that you say
and when i'm waking up
it all will be lies

so none of this will
stand in the way
and you don't have to go back
into his arms

stay here with me
i want you by my side
but it's just wishful thinking
and i can't help it

it hurts so much
to let you go
and to watch you
drift away

helpless and stranded
i hope you
lied to me
this one time

Diving In

i let go
i broke free

i played the savior
i played the villain
i played the lover
i played it all

not because i wanted to
but because i had to
it's all done
and none matters anymore

all of that
and everything else
prepared me for
one last battle

so here i am
ready to dive in
uncertain if i would
surface to see the light

eventually we all wither away
so i'm taking my chances
to face it on my terms
and with it to take away the darkness

From Gold to Stone

i never had to break sweat
i never had to worry about anything
everything i touched turned gold
life was one big party

and then it wasn't
piece by piece things fell apart
everything i touched
turned into stone

sometimes it's so confusing
when i try to figure out
what went wrong
but i've realized it's all a test

i don't really care anymore
i'm just doing what i think is right
so here's my apology
if i didn't measure up to your expectations

you can paint me the villain
or you can erase me completely
i'm more than happy being forgotten
because i stopped giving a damn long time ago

Walking Away

one step forward
one step backward
i was held back
from acting on my thoughts

feeling restless
caged and battered
often i wondered
when will i break free

and finally
my mind is at peace
as it feels right
to walk away

Run No More

i'm running away
from it all
i'm running towards
the unknown

i'm leaving behind
everything that has
tormented me
gifting me with pain

i hung on for too long
hoping to see the best
but all i got in return
is a shattered world

so i started running away
as fast as i could
even before i made up my mind
as to where i was heading

i think i should slow down
to walk the next few steps
while i decide
where i should be

Borrowed Time

things can be great
it can feel like a dream
and little do we realize
that this would end soon

there's nothing much
that we can do
we just have to make way
for the inevitable

but yet we try to
stretch it beyond
what it's supposed to be
to live on borrowed time

though it lasts for a while
it never feels the same
so it makes me think
if it's worth it all

should i rather
let it end
when it is
supposed to be

Back at Square One

i locked my heart away
and kept my emotions at bay
so that i cant get
far away from you

thing's weren't ecstatic
neither were they gloomy
i just got along
without you

all that effort
to forget what i had
all these efforts
to feel numb

sometimes i wonder
if it's all worth it
the trouble i go through
to forget you

but all it takes
is just one call from you
to break it all down
and i'm back at square one

Tonight

i can't feel
the love has burnt out
i can't see
the anger has blinded me

you and me
are nothing but
a disaster
in the waiting

i'm seeking refuge
in a place i'm not invited
though it hardly matters
i don't give a damn

so lets not get
ahead of ourselves
this starts and ends
tonight

Distant Memory

you were taken away
just like that
one day you were here
the next day you were not

they asked me if i'm ok
they asked me if i'm sad
i was not ok
i was devastated

frozen in shock
hardly shed a tear at your departure
but that doesn't mean
i loved you any less

who pulls all the strings i thought
with no regard for anyone
how can they take someone away
without a warning

i learnt to move on
just like everyone else
though at times i feel betrayed
i feel cheated

you were supposed to
be apart of my life
instead you ended up being
a distant memory

Forbidden Fruit

snatched away from
someone else's
loosely held hand
without hesitation

she lay in bed
waiting to be taken in
to be finally appreciated
for the beauty she posses

fed by the sweetness of her mouth
captivated by her aroused peaks
i started to descend
towards the center of her paradise

her hidden lips whistled desire
as i explored the forbidden land
like a pirate
hunting treasure

my mouth needed no invitaion
it pierced through her broken defenses
to the lquid heat filled
apex of her thighs

her gentle moans
grew into monsterous screams
and i threw away the fondling
to give into her needs

her legs rested on my shoulders
inviting me in
i gladly slid into her warmth
whilst reaching towards to kiss her

upon meeting her sensual gaze
i realised that
it was the start
of a long night ahead