Let Down

you say i'm acting weird
that i'm being someone else
well i've got news for you
i've been this when you aren't around

how can you walk in
and start looking for my smile
it's been on a break
ever since you wanted to take one

then you start accusing me
of being all gloomy and dull
what else did u expect
when you walked away with my soul

maybe i went all the way
when i should've stopped half way
but now my only fear
is that i would walk away

not just from you
but everyone else
saddened by let downs
that i'll choose to be on my own

Don't Cry

don't cry little darling
don't loose hope
your knight in the shining armour
will come to you soon

sometimes you have to
cross a several bridges
to get to your
home sweet home

so wipe those tears
and flaunt your pretty smile
let the world be
amazed by your beauty

and till he comes
stay away from them
they don't care
about anyone else but them

When I Met You

i wish that
i had met you
when i believed in love
and you did too

it all
would have been perfect
like a fairytale
i used to read

but there's a reason
that we call it a fantasy
it is not something
that we could live in

sometimes i can't help
but wonder
how it would have been
to have you with me

we would have been in love
in our little bubble
doing the silly and romantic things
that couples do

now it all seems far away
and this would
end up
being just a thought

because when i met you
and you met me
we were running
away from love

Vulnerable

going against my own advice
i couldn't help
but open up
leaving myself vulnerable

my mind kept saying no
i turned a deaf ear
when i should have
listened closely

there's not much
to be done now
but to walk away
in pain

lessons learnt
won't go to waste
but not using them
is the case

as always
i'll have with me
the wonderful memories
that i've made

so i'll bear
through the pain
because it wasn't
all in vain

i'll always smile
when i think of you
maybe shed a tear
because we are through

Out Of Time

you pushed me away
when i tried to get closer
you made it clear
that i wasn't needed

i couldn't do much
you were making the choices
i was stuck at heartbreak hotel
and i checked out recently

matters of the heart
concerns me nomore
i'm just fine
with a stranger in my arms

but now you say
that you want me back
and that it was my fault
to let it slip away

i'm not pointing fingers
and i'm not trying to mend it
we've run out of time
it's about time you realised it

Death Of A Bastard

bruised by love
battered by breakups
i was down and out
never to get up

then i found an inner strength
by killing my consciece
i stood up on my feet
pulverizing my oldself

a bastard came into being
selfish in its own right
not giving a damn
nor showing any mercy

it felt wierd at first
but soon it became second nature
and i embraced
not being accountable

at a time when i least expected
in a place i hardly spent time
you came into my life
when i was betting for disaster

so the fightback began
to regain my lost soul
my heart yearned to break free
from the chains i've put on

now i stand here with hope
which you've inflicted upon
you gave me the weaponary
in the form of love, compassion

i made the most of it
to rid what was not me
so here i am celebrating
the death of the bastard

Pretend

i want to tell you
that i'm stuck
in a mess
and i can't get out

but the words
wont come out
the fear of loosing you
holds it back

so i pretend
that everyting is ok
fake a face
that i'd never have

i'm clueless
and i'm dying here
it sucks that
i cant get out

all i want is
to speak my heart out
and set it free
but i cannot

Comfort Zone

we come home
escaping the outside world
and watch some tv
have home cooked dinner

bubble baths
whilst sipping red wine
falling asleep
all cuddled up

she's the first thing
that i see every morning
and i'm amazed
by how she makes me feel satisfied

everything is
just the way it should be
a picture perfect scenario
but then i think to myself

should i get down
on one knee
or should i leave
the door open

The Fall

walking towards the edge
makes me want to free fall
and it suprises me
how i'm not scared at all

so i shall fall
with a smile on my face
pushing away everything and everyone
at peace on my own

i might not be reluctant
yet in these dying minutes
i look for my reason
to prevent me from falling

i never cared much
of how things would end
though my conscience doesn't allow me
to leave things unfinished

so maybe my reason
is not you or them
rather to fill the void
that i've always seen around me

Red

we thought it was love
so we painted it all red
it seemed like a great way
to celebrate our love

we were in a rush
eager to shout out loud
to tell the world
that we were in love

maybe it was too soon
maybe it was misread
too many maybe's
too little feelings

it's still all red
though we are mourning
a bleeding heart
instead of celebrating