Attention

you were like
the worst winter
cold as dreary
dark and opaque

and i was
like the summer sun
a smile across my face
trying to brighten you up

too many chilly moments
lead me to confront you
you were unaware
and full of apologies

and now you try
to shine on my world
giving me all the attention
when i require none anymore

it doesn't feel
the same anymore
the ecstatic feeling you gave
has been replaced by awkwardness

mayb it's time
we let autumn come
so we shall fall apart
and wither away

Runaway

i want to runaway
far from here
to breakaway
from these troubles

so i'm forcing everyone
to let me go
doing things to
be rid of the guilt

i'll be glad
if you came along
then we could get lost
in a fantasy

maybe
it's wishful thinking
and you won't
come away with me

those beautiful eyes
your sweet lips
and our conversations
i would miss

either way
i will go
away from this madness
without hesitation

i stood ground
to put up a fight
but now it's time
to runaway

Hanging By A Fingertip

feeling cornered
got nowhere to go
i look around
there's no escape

i feel helpless
will i go down
without a fight
without a chance

desperate for survival
i start to dig a hole
to hide myself
from everything

but it's not helping
as everything starts to haunts me
i hold onto
what little hope i have

and i fight back
against the odds
to see some light
in the darkest times

i want to give up
i want to get away
but here i am fighting
when hope fades every second

I Need

i'll lie to you
i'll cheat on you
i'll hurt you
i'll make you cry

you think
i'll do all of this

i'm not denying
i'm not defending
i'm not giving excuses
i'm not asking for blind faith

but i don't think
that you have a crystal ball either

it is fair
for you to be catious
it is understandable
for you to be scared

scars take time to heal
trust needs time to build
love needs time to grow
and i need time to fight for you

You Don't , I Do

you don't return my calls
you don't reply to my texts
you are making it clear
that you don't want me around

it's not that i don't get it
but i just can't leave you and go
all i want is to talk to you
and to see if you are fine

you are lying there
in bed with him
with so much anger
just to get back at me

and i'm here
all alone
going out of my mind
worrying over you

i keep telling myself
to build up resentment
so it's easier
to detach myself from you

yet it's funny how
i dont feel any hatred
even as i am
walking away

Let Down

you say i'm acting weird
that i'm being someone else
well i've got news for you
i've been this when you aren't around

how can you walk in
and start looking for my smile
it's been on a break
ever since you wanted to take one

then you start accusing me
of being all gloomy and dull
what else did u expect
when you walked away with my soul

maybe i went all the way
when i should've stopped half way
but now my only fear
is that i would walk away

not just from you
but everyone else
saddened by let downs
that i'll choose to be on my own

Don't Cry

don't cry little darling
don't loose hope
your knight in the shining armour
will come to you soon

sometimes you have to
cross a several bridges
to get to your
home sweet home

so wipe those tears
and flaunt your pretty smile
let the world be
amazed by your beauty

and till he comes
stay away from them
they don't care
about anyone else but them

When I Met You

i wish that
i had met you
when i believed in love
and you did too

it all
would have been perfect
like a fairytale
i used to read

but there's a reason
that we call it a fantasy
it is not something
that we could live in

sometimes i can't help
but wonder
how it would have been
to have you with me

we would have been in love
in our little bubble
doing the silly and romantic things
that couples do

now it all seems far away
and this would
end up
being just a thought

because when i met you
and you met me
we were running
away from love

Vulnerable

going against my own advice
i couldn't help
but open up
leaving myself vulnerable

my mind kept saying no
i turned a deaf ear
when i should have
listened closely

there's not much
to be done now
but to walk away
in pain

lessons learnt
won't go to waste
but not using them
is the case

as always
i'll have with me
the wonderful memories
that i've made

so i'll bear
through the pain
because it wasn't
all in vain

i'll always smile
when i think of you
maybe shed a tear
because we are through

Out Of Time

you pushed me away
when i tried to get closer
you made it clear
that i wasn't needed

i couldn't do much
you were making the choices
i was stuck at heartbreak hotel
and i checked out recently

matters of the heart
concerns me nomore
i'm just fine
with a stranger in my arms

but now you say
that you want me back
and that it was my fault
to let it slip away

i'm not pointing fingers
and i'm not trying to mend it
we've run out of time
it's about time you realised it